I remember that it all started 1 year ago.
I was extremely depressed to the point where I was sleeping all day in bed or crying, starving myself because I thought I was fat...
I actually wanted to cut myself, but didn't, I wanted to take a lot of pills, drink them and then kill myself like that, but I didn't...
I was watching these jewtube series Fran Bow, the ending thaught me a lot and now when I look back on it, I feel as if a God or Father Satan came and snapped some sense into me, all the suicide thoughts were gone.
I went to the psychiatrist, because I had to, for my depression, I was sent to the Day Center...
I found a friend that was rambling a lot about Satan and whatnot.
Through her I met a guy that was kind of like a satanist, but I'm not sure which..
The girl made me "have" a lot of "guardians", that were nothing more then enemy greys and nordics.
Death was coming for me, because my energy was being drained a lot...
I fought back to stay alive, but it was extremely hard.
I contacted the guy again and asked him for help, he agreed to help me and told me to meet up with him, which I did.
We went to an abandoned house and he summoned Lord Phenex.
It worked. He said that he is my GD, a real one.
Turns out that's how I met my first Guardian
So from there on, things started getting better.
I had a dream on February 14th about Father Satan calling me over to come to him and I kept on seeing a demoness, but I did not understand who she was, she just had a really strick look on her face.
The next day from there on, I started jewgling Lord Phenex's name a lot, like he was pushing me and telling me to continue searching for information about him, so I did.
I stumbled on the JOS that way
I started reading through and I felt so good inside.
February 29th came and I decided to dedicate.
I dedicated on the 29th of February that only happens once in 4 years only.
Before dedicating, I saw blue lights and after the dedication I felt such bliss and happiness.
I felt like 7 Gods were with me!
I was smiling like an idiot while walking to the bus stop.
I was just so happy!
From there on, I started to do some meditations on the Power Meditation section.
And that's about it about my story.